I know and I don't know

   Good luck finding me if you wanted to talk.  I done checked out and went to my happy place.  The plan is to stay there for awhile.  The problem with an overactive conscience is just that- overactive.   I would love to turn it off and do what I please without it nagging me and ruining any sort of pleasure or fun.  Its an overactive sense of guilt is what it truly is.  Wish I could go thru life not caring about anyone or anything, but instead am prisoner to potential or imagined damage in everything I do or say.  Guess I am an easy "mark".   In a easier mental world,  I could say "to h-e-double hockey sticks with it".   Its like I am jewish or something.  Except, that for all the talk about a jewish guilt complex, I have yet to meet a jew who cares about anything other than themselves and their pocketbook and how the rest of the financially well-heeled world views them.  But my train of thought just derailed.   Yes, happy place coming up, right around the bend...:)